This morning I woke up angry; and for the first time it was at the right entity. The Devil. “The thief comes only to steal kill and destroy.” –John 10:10a I was angry that another morning was stolen from me by oversleeping. Angry that, yet again, I had to choose between quiet, alone time with … Continue reading Let’s Fight

I spent the summer of 2017 in Brazil, working in a women’s rehab. I struggled as I watched a young woman who had so much potential walk away. Walk away from true life and choose death; life on the streets of Brazil. “This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you … Continue reading The Lightbulbs Of Life

So afraid of being seen, and painfully aware of it, I wrote the following three months ago: “The story of your life is the story of the long and brutal assault on your heart by the one who knows what you could be and fears it.” – Ransomed Heart Daily Reading My heart is still … Continue reading To Know & To Be Known

“I don’t want to talk about You like You’re not in the room. Want to look right at You. Want to sing right to You.” –‘You Won’t Relent’ Jesus Culture Hearing that song I thought, “Yeah God. I want to talk to You, not just about You.” The Bible can be like God’s Facebook page. … Continue reading God’s Facebook Page

He calls me by my name Not by my shame “Tesia Grace you are Beloved And I give you My grace” Why don’t I believe it Why can’t I receive it What is going on in my brain? Why do I hold onto the pain? My heart is so afraid For Jesus to invade Afraid … Continue reading Thanks, But I Don’t Believe You

Brokenness, brokenness Is what I long for Brokenness is what I need Brokenness, brokenness That’s what You want from me So take my heart and mold it Take my mind transform it Take my will conform it To Yours, to Yours, Oh Lord Back in October, one of my first days returning home from the … Continue reading Mirror of Shame

In thinking through some struggles with election, God's justice, and God's grace, Holy Spirit put it on my heart to write this. People question God's goodness when they see suffering. When some are saved and others aren't. When God heals some and allows others to die. Growing up in the church I think there is … Continue reading The Weight of Sin and Grace

The Quiet Years These are the quiet years The days I cried all my tears Tears of joy, tears of pain You came down, Your Spirit rain These are the quiet days The days I sing to You my praise You show me who I am to You I'm transformed through and through This is … Continue reading The Quiet Years

Is life really beauty-full? Is life really beauty-full when I am fighting with one family member, another is having heart problems, and I am speaking with neither? Is life really beauty-full when some friendships are fizzling out and I believe it’s because I’m failing? When I am unemployed, and I have no financial stability? When … Continue reading The Office of Offenses

“Just tell me what to do and I’ll do it.” Sound familiar? Just tell me what to do so I can know what is expected of me. Then I can meet that expectation and be pleasing to you. Then I can be enough, valuable, worthy of your love. I did all you asked of me. … Continue reading Recital or Relationship