Knowing I’m motivated by growth and growth opportunity God recently told me, “The quicker you humble yourself, the faster you’ll grow.” I am so stubborn and proud sometimes, trying to figure it out on my own. I insist on trying things my way first. Or even in my pride there’s wounding. So sensitive to correction. Assuming the undertone of someone critiquing me is just that I’m wrong. Always wrong. So I hide in the corner trying to grow on my own not letting anyone interfere too much. But then the growth stops. And I wonder why my once exponential growth in God has been stunted. And looking back at my largest growth spurts in life I see one common thread. Humility. There’s freedom in humility. In not having everything figured out I can ask questions, receive counsel, get outside perspective and encouragement from others. I don’t have to learn things the hard way when I’m humbly engaging in community. I can actually learn from others and their mistakes. Which is so efficient and saves so much grief on my own behalf of wading through the mess myself.
“Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.” James 4:10
In all my struggles with fear of failure and inadequacy, that’s exactly where God wants me. Humble before Him acknowledging I am not God. He is. I am not able. He is. And what a relief and privilege it is to be able to trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding, but in all my ways submit to and acknowledge Jesus, and He will make my paths straight. (Prov. 3:5)