Feasting on Jesus.
Having bypassed breakfast because of a busy morning, I was going to jump straight into lunch. I played several different options in my head. Do I want oatmeal? Mmm no. Lunch. Soup? Salad? Maybe a sandwich? Nothing really pleasing to my appetite, I finally settled on beans and rice thinking I’d get rid of the leftovers. But that didn’t sound totally satisfying. It made logical sense, but didn’t satisfy. I stopped right there in my kitchen and said,
“Jesus, what do I eat? What do You want me to eat right now? What does my body need?”
“Have the oatmeal.”
“Ok Lord. I’ll have the oatmeal.”
This may seem trivial or small, but it’s a victory. It’s intimacy. God is a God of the details and intimacy is found in the details. I gave God complete control over an area that I wanted control over. I went to food to satisfy. I didn’t believe the food God wanted me to eat would best for my body while also satisfying my mood and tastebuds.
Jesus satisfies. I can’t begin to tell you how joyful and intimate this breakfast with Him was. In my surrender and obedience my heart, mind, body, and spirit were all satisfied all at once. The physical experience of eating became a spiritual one in which I gave thanks to God as He poured love, joy, and peace into my heart.
“Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”
Holding onto what I desire kills me. Giving God my desires and allowing Him to replace them with His desires for me satisfies my heart in ways I never dreamed possible. I feel like I am finally getting a taste of what feasting on Jesus is really like. What Jesus satisfies really means.
God is a God of the details. He desires intimacy with you. Communion with Him at every moment of the day is possible. Let go of what you think you want for what God wants. Feast on Jesus. Allow His Spirit to work within you satisfying the deepest desires of your heart; the ones so deep you don’t even know they are there.
“I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you.”